Life with baby continues. Addison is doing great, Hannah is such a good sister. Matt surprises me all the time, he is really, really good at this dad stuff. It’s pretty cool to see him playing such a softer roll. It’s not easy with a newborn. Matt fed Addison for the first time. He said he really enjoyed doing it too. I’m sure it must be pretty cool. It’s kinda odd seeing someone else feed her though. I’m sure Addie is thinking the same thing. As for me I’m doing alright. Hannah is off on March break for a couple weeks. So it’s just me and the gals during the day while Matt works. Trying to keep up to everything is still a juggle. I really enjoy watching Hannah with Addison, it’s pretty cool.

I’m really missing my family these days. I still haven’t actually met my nephew Brandon either. It’s been awhile since being home. I hope that happens soon. Hopefully the weather clears up soon, so my mom can come for a visit as well. I really want her to meet Addison. She’s gonna loooove her!

It feels strange, that only one ( Addison) out of six of my moms grandchildren will have a very hard time getting to know her. Hannah grew up with my mom around all the time. Addison will get a visit here and there. Hopefully we can find a way to grow the same relationship that Hannah and my mom have. Those two are very close. My vavo ( grandma ) was a huge part of my childhood. I remember her being around all the time, and ohhh did she love us all. I really want Hannah and Addies vavo to be a big part of their lives, like mine was. I know she would if she could!

I recently got in contact with a girlfriend I met when I was Hannah’s age. We were really good friends growing up, you know “Best Friends Forever” kinda gals. It’s been so wonderful hearing from her again, it’s like we never lost touch. Life has been very busy around here, so I haven’t had too many opportunities to chat with her on the phone. Hopefully soon. We have been speaking daily though, through messaging. I can only hope my daughter can have good friends like Kim and I were when we were her age.

Addison has been sleeping on my chest here for awhile now, and I need to get my ass up! Until next time….

I’m having a crappy night, I just thought I would share it with whoever. Everyone is in bed, and it literately just took five hours to put the baby to sleep. She decided finally after many of my nerves were pulled to fall asleep on the couch. Looks like I’ll be sleeping in the living room tonight. Honestly I don’t care where I sleep, I just want to sleep. This baby stuff is allot harder than I remember. Addison is so dependent on me, it seems like I have to do everything. She is my little cling on, mommas girl, and it is me that she wants all the time. I love the little bugger, but I wish she would let someone help me.

Well it’s been 3 and a half weeks since Addison Elizabeth came into this world, and all I can say is that I can’t believe someone this tiny can be so much work! Don’t get me wrong, I am enjoying her to the fullest, but there has been times when I said “oh my goodness what did we do” I can’t believe how trying raising an infant can be.

It’s been nine and a half years since Hannah was brought home, mind you her temperament was a little kinder than Addie’s. Addison is a little more hands on, she definitely is a mommas girl. She lets you know she doesn’t want to be put down, she won’t sleep alone, she’s hungry, wet, or dirty. I can’t even explain the rippers that come out of this child, hahaha! There is no way if me and Addison were in a crowded room, and she lets one go, everyone is going to think it was me. Seriously babies fart like that? Haha I had no idea. I think due to her flatulence ( love that word ) she is pretty uncomfortable. We have met the wrath of Addison Brett. She can cry, and for a very long time too! I think she has mild colic, that will hopefully disappear soon.

Sleep deprivation, is bad enough, without being sick yourself. I found out first hand late last week. I think I should give my hubby some credit for putting up with me. I’m sure it would be different if more of the responsibility was on him. With me nursing, I have no choice but to suck it up and give in to Addison’s every need to feed, no matter what ridiculous time of the day it is, and how sick I am. The poor little bugger caught my cold as well. She is sneezing her face off, coughing at times, and is very sleepy, and quite irritable this week.

Ok it’s not all bad though, I mean what did I expect…..things are going to be tough naturally. Bringing home a new baby, adjusting to a lifestyle change, recovering from surgery, the hormone change, being sick, sleep deprived egh…..I think if I can still wake up in the morning with a smile on my face, I’m doing pretty good. I’m so glad that Addison was brought into this home, because one thing we have for sure is love. We love each other so much, and there is nothing we can’t get through. That was a bit of cheese because it’s Valentines day and all! Spreading the love, spreading the love.

Ok on a more positive note though, when Addison looks into my eyes, or her head turns when she hears my voice, can there be a better feeling? I love when I’m nursing her and she holds my hand. The fact that I make her so incredibly happy ( or full ) is a pretty amazing feeling. Hannah is so in love with her, she can’t stop saying how cute Addie is, and how much she loves her. What a great feeling. To see my 6′3” husband bow down to this 6lbs baby girl, and be a gentle adoring father, is a blessing to witness. I mean there is so much good here in our home, all the hard stuff will just fade away soon enough. I’ll just keep on napping, and trying to focus on the good stuff, not all the hard stuff.