As much as I wish she would stay a little baby forever, I am also wishing that this hard newborn phase will hurry up and pass us by. I think we are doing a great job considering Addison isn’t an angel by any means. Sometimes though I tell ya, I could run for the hills.

With all the crying aside she’s doing so well though. Addison is smiling at us everyday now. What a wonderful feeling that is, to know we can make her smile. Everyday she is “talking” to us a little more. She is such a strong girl, way beyond her months. She loves to stand on her own two feet with support of our two fingers. I can’t believe how much she tries to do at such a young age.

I heard someone say that it was a head trip to think that being the mom automatically makes us more responsible. Yeah, whatever! It is so true, even my husband thinks so. Woman have this instinctual thing about them, that babies know! From the moment that a mother holds her baby, babies know mom’s can do it just a bit better, and a bit faster, with a bit more ease. ( Thanks Krista ) I’m not saying this is the case for every woman out there. I’m sure there are a few super dads out there too. In fact I believe Matt is a super dad! If anything he gives me the emotional support to do what I need to do day to day, and to me that is so important.

I was thinking about doing the same thing I did when I was pregnant, and write Addison’s weekly milestones on the blog. I printed out my weekly posts when I was pregnant, and put it in a folder for Addison to one day read. So I thought it would be cool for her to read about herself growing up one day in the future. I wanna include pictures and stuff too!

So well see if I actually do that. I have been trying to publish this post now for a whole week. Time is just flying by, and there never seems to be enough time in the day  to do things I wanna do. Off to get my fussy baby!

“Happy St Patty’s Day”

I’m really missing my family these days. I still haven’t actually met my nephew Brandon either. It’s been awhile since being home. I hope that happens soon. Hopefully the weather clears up soon, so my mom can come for a visit as well. I really want her to meet Addison. She’s gonna loooove her!

It feels strange, that only one ( Addison) out of six of my moms grandchildren will have a very hard time getting to know her. Hannah grew up with my mom around all the time. Addison will get a visit here and there. Hopefully we can find a way to grow the same relationship that Hannah and my mom have. Those two are very close. My vavo ( grandma ) was a huge part of my childhood. I remember her being around all the time, and ohhh did she love us all. I really want Hannah and Addies vavo to be a big part of their lives, like mine was. I know she would if she could!

I recently got in contact with a girlfriend I met when I was Hannah’s age. We were really good friends growing up, you know “Best Friends Forever” kinda gals. It’s been so wonderful hearing from her again, it’s like we never lost touch. Life has been very busy around here, so I haven’t had too many opportunities to chat with her on the phone. Hopefully soon. We have been speaking daily though, through messaging. I can only hope my daughter can have good friends like Kim and I were when we were her age.

Addison has been sleeping on my chest here for awhile now, and I need to get my ass up! Until next time….

It’s been nine and a half years since Hannah was brought home, mind you her temperament was a little kinder than Addie’s. Addison is a little more hands on, she definitely is a mommas girl. She lets you know she doesn’t want to be put down, she won’t sleep alone, she’s hungry, wet, or dirty. I can’t even explain the rippers that come out of this child, hahaha! There is no way if me and Addison were in a crowded room, and she lets one go, everyone is going to think it was me. Seriously babies fart like that? Haha I had no idea. I think due to her flatulence ( love that word ) she is pretty uncomfortable. We have met the wrath of Addison Brett. She can cry, and for a very long time too! I think she has mild colic, that will hopefully disappear soon.

Sleep deprivation, is bad enough, without being sick yourself. I found out first hand late last week. I think I should give my hubby some credit for putting up with me. I’m sure it would be different if more of the responsibility was on him. With me nursing, I have no choice but to suck it up and give in to Addison’s every need to feed, no matter what ridiculous time of the day it is, and how sick I am. The poor little bugger caught my cold as well. She is sneezing her face off, coughing at times, and is very sleepy, and quite irritable this week.

Ok it’s not all bad though, I mean what did I expect…..things are going to be tough naturally. Bringing home a new baby, adjusting to a lifestyle change, recovering from surgery, the hormone change, being sick, sleep deprived egh…..I think if I can still wake up in the morning with a smile on my face, I’m doing pretty good. I’m so glad that Addison was brought into this home, because one thing we have for sure is love. We love each other so much, and there is nothing we can’t get through. That was a bit of cheese because it’s Valentines day and all! Spreading the love, spreading the love.

Ok on a more positive note though, when Addison looks into my eyes, or her head turns when she hears my voice, can there be a better feeling? I love when I’m nursing her and she holds my hand. The fact that I make her so incredibly happy ( or full ) is a pretty amazing feeling. Hannah is so in love with her, she can’t stop saying how cute Addie is, and how much she loves her. What a great feeling. To see my 6′3” husband bow down to this 6lbs baby girl, and be a gentle adoring father, is a blessing to witness. I mean there is so much good here in our home, all the hard stuff will just fade away soon enough. I’ll just keep on napping, and trying to focus on the good stuff, not all the hard stuff.

Speaking of Shelley, she’s actually leaving us tomorrow. I’m looking forward to see how Matt, Hannah and I handle things on our own. It will be nice to see how life will be, just the four of us…… Matt and his gals. Don’t get me wrong I would love it if she stayed with us longer, but I am curious to see how our routine will change. This is it, just Matt and I and our beautiful girls. I have faith in us though, I don’t think we will kill each other, not right away that is haha!

I can’t wait to share each day with my family! I know this little bundle of joy was brought into our lives for a reason. I am so happy to be part of this family, I love them all so very much! One week down, a lifetime to go.

The morning of January, 22nd the hospital called and asked us to be there at 4pm. As soon as I had a time, it was really hard for me to hold back the tears. I actually waited about a half hour before I told Matt because I didn’t think I could tell him without having a preggo moment. I needed to pass time so I decided to go for a nap. Soon after I woke up Matt had told me the hospital called and asked us to come in later then was planned. I was disappointed but what could I do. Soon enough the phone rang again and the hospital asked us to come in at 3:30pm, that was in 40 min! We rushed around and packed the car, and off we went.

Once at the hospital the nurses were super sweet and gave me an ultrasound to make sure she was still breech, if she was we would continue with the c-section. Little Addison was still in her stubborn place, nice and breech. To be honest I was thrilled because it meant she would be born today!!!! If not I would have been sent home, and after all that build up it would have been disappointing.

Well it was IV time, I was dreading this moment, because I heard it hurt. Matt had reassured me that it wouldn’t hurt to bad, and I really shouldn’t worry about it. Well the nurse who put my IV seemed to be having a very hard time. After she inserted the needle part she forgot to cut off the blood supply while she hooked up the hose part, and I started bleeding everywhere. She apologized and I was ok with it. She finished the IV and told me to rest my hand. As soon as I put my hand down, the hose fell out and I was bleeding everywhere again, not cool. Anyways I asked another nurse what was in the IV bag, because I tasted something funny in my mouth, and my hearing and sight was beginning to fade, I wanted to know what was happening to me. Apparently the not eating for 12 hours and losing blood, I was just about to pass out. A few deep breaths I was back! So that “don’t worry” about the IV thing turned out to SUCK huge haha.

After the IV fiasco we ended up being pushed back with a few emergency c-sections until 8pm. Once the nurse came in to get me, Matt and I kissed and I walked away to have our baby. Soon after I was on the table, waiting for Matt to come hold my hand. I can’t believe how long it seemed. When he came in the operating room in his scrubs, I started to tear up. This was really happening, our daughter would be here any moment.

The doctors were talking amongst themselves, and Matt was holding my hand nice and tight. I was being pulled, and the sensation of everything happening just made me feel so strange, I was happy, scared, and I just shut my eyes. Matt told me she was here, our little girl was here! The whole time I was crying and he wiped my tears away for me. For the first time when we heard her cry, I saw Matt cry, and of course it made me cry even more, awww we had our baby, finally she was here.

At 8:47pm Addison, Elizabeth, Brett was born 5lbs, 15oz and the most beautiful thing I saw since my daughter Hannah was born 9 1/2 years ago. It seemed like forever, I just wanted to see my daughter, I sent Matt over to her, to take a picture. He returned with the cutest picture I have ever seen. Finally he was able to bring her to me. I just wanted to hold her and kiss her. I unbound my own arm, and touched her, then took a picture of Matt and Addison.

Soon enough we were back in recovery, and we were met by our daughter Hannah. How big did she look! This was a great day, all of us were finally together!

What’s happening with me : Well I am having tons of false contractions, which leaves me hopeful that this will be the end to this waiting game! I want to meet this little girl!

My last day of work was on the 17th, and it couldn’t have been a better night to end it on. It was busy, people were friendly and I left with $160 take home, not too shabby.

I have been busy around here lately, knowing that I will be going for a c-section in a few days. Cleaning and all that great stuff, “nesting” to the fullest! I think I’m more concerned that I can’t eat anything all day rather than the actual operation…..silly huh? Well when your as pregnant as I am and somebody tells you your not allowed to eat, it’s very disappointing.

Well I guess this will be my last post until she’s born unless she turns by the 22nd and I get sent home. We’ll it’s been dandy! Now I have something to look back on. Cross your fingers she’s born on the 22nd!!!!!!!

Weigh in : 136lbs from my last doc apt on the 15th for a total weight gain of 28lbs

The Baby : Is ready to be born!

What’s happening with me : Well I’m still working. I have 3 days left. To be honest I really don’t know how I’ll feel being at home all the time. I’m sure once our little girl arrives it will be wonderful!

We just found out that our baby is as stubborn as I am! She is breech, head up high holding her feet right up against her face! Now that doesn’t seem very comfortable at all. So we have a scheduled c-section in 11 days. I am not looking forward to this extended hospital visit that’s for sure. I have had so many mixed feelings about it as well. We just found out to get a private room is going to cost enough as well, but in the long run I think it will be money well spent. They plan to do one more ultrasound the evening of our c-section as well, and just in case she has managed to turn herself they will hold off and send us home until labor starts. I really hope we find out she turns before the day of, or else she just stays put because I think being sent home would be pretty discouraging after being prepared, and expecting things to happen. Then back to the waiting game! That would blow.

Just a heads up for friends and family reading this, I would appreciate our privacy while in the hospital, we would love to hear from you after we have returned home. Until then we would like to be left alone for many reasons. Under different circumstances we would have loved to have you visit. With being a c-section, and flu season, we rather keep things very, very quiet!

11 days and counting………. Ohhh we also found out that she weighs about 5lbs 6oz

Weigh in : 137 lbs for a total weight gain of 29 lbs.

The baby : You are considered full-term now and your baby’s final touches are being made. The crown-to-rump length of your baby is now 14 inches and the total length is around 21 inches. Your baby weighs approximately 6.5 pounds. Your uterus may be measuring about the same as it has been and is probably about 6.5 inches from the top of your bellybutton.

This week your baby should engage into your pelvis. If this is not your first pregnancy, it may happen later. When your baby engages, his head drops down into your pelvis and you might feel a slight sensation called `lightening` as the pressure on your ribs eases. As your baby drops into the final position for delivery, you may experience a buzzing feeling and shooting pains in your groin and leg. Normally, you will be able to breathe and eat easier. However, your uterus pushes down harder on your bladder and you will have an increased urge to urinate more frequently. Even if your baby engages now, you still possibly feel his feet in your breastbone around week 40.

Your baby is now fully mature and ready to be born. However, your baby is still growing and developing every day. Fat is still be laid down at a rate of a half ounce a day. If this is your first pregnancy, you can expect to deliver closer to 40 weeks or shortly thereafter. If this is not your first baby, you might go earlier than 40 weeks! Make sure that your bags are packed for the hospital and remember to preregister for admission.

http://www.i-am-pregnant.com/

Hannah Quote : “Ohh I can’t wait for Addie to come home! It’s going to be very soon mom”

What’s happening with me : I am sore, and tired. I have enjoyed this pregnancy, but anytime she would like to join our family, please feel free to drop in! This holiday season has taken a lot out of me. I am so not interested in working right now, I have fully enjoyed this time off! I gave notice to my boss that any day now I may have to call it quits. I’ll keep working a few days a week until the 21st. I’m due on the 28th so I think I’m pushing it a little bit, but I truly feel if I work it will keep my mind off of the actual time still left! I don’t just want to sit around at home.

Christmas was wonderful, I really enjoyed it! I have has 2 huge preggo moments though. I didn’t think I would be the girl who cries purely out of emotion but I did. My father in law Paul and his girlfriend Kelly found a small size white rocking chair for the nursery. The only thing I really desired and couldn’t find. He brought it down the stairs on boxing day with a huge red bow on it and as soon as I saw it I started to cry, then I started to laugh because I was crying, then I was a laughing/crying pregnant mess! it was amazing ahahaha I wish that was on video! Once again this morning with my girlfriend Jodie called me and told me she had her baby last night. So for my emotional state I prey this baby arrives soon.

Other than that, all is well in my world. Baby is wonderful, and we are all healthy. Happy and healthy that’s all that matters.

Weigh in : 134lbs for a total weight gain of 26 lbs.

The Baby : Your baby continues to put on weight by about 1/2 pound each week. Its no wonder the womb is becoming very cramped. Your baby is gaining weight quickly because layers of fat pile on and help in both body temperature regulation and developing his immunity in preparation for life in the outside world. You may find you are carrying your baby much lower now (or soon will be) as the baby drops into the birth canal, readying himself for birth. Your baby is about 19 inches long and weighs from 5.5 to 6.0 pounds. The vast majority of babies born now will live with little need for intensive medical treatment.